Am I Too Broken For You?

Is that why?
The reason behind it
You almost sending me away
To "get help"
Because you couldn't understand
And were too afraid to try

Did you see the center
As a cure?
And inpatient
As a means of
Hiding the process
To reach that cure?

Can you no longer see it
The girl you raised from birth
The one who suckled from your breast
Showed you her first missing tooth
Loved you
And hated you too
You can't see her inside of me?

Have I locked myself behind too thick walls
And thrown away the key to my door
Did you hope they would break it down
The barriers built from pain
And fear
Loss
And life

Am I just that
A broken toy
In need of a repair
So you send me to the mechanic
To get me tuned
Wired back into the shape
That you once knew

Can you not handle who I now am?
Can you not help me yourself?
Can you not show me the unconditional love
You promised me from birth?

Do you ever consider the possibility
Of this thought process
Being one of the reasons
That I shattered
A reason that I built up so many walls
You can't see the human inside me

I still love you so much
And need you even more
So why do I seem too broken for you?