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I was born into a household many might call
Rich, easy, loving
Two parents still very much in love
Two annoying yet loved older siblings
And a caring, cuddly, fluffy dog
Rich... Not exactly, but I couldn't complain
Easy... Not really, I was and am pushed to work harder,
Be better,
Good grades, attitude, manners
Loving... Yes, though the occasional smacks takes me away from that sometimes
All in all a pretty nice life
Until it wasn't
Losing my father at age 12
Suddenly
Unexpectedly
To a heart attack
Finding comfort in fists connecting with walls
And Sharp objects meeting flesh
Being sent to a therapist
Diagnosis?
PTSD, ADHD, Bipolar, Anxiety, Depression
My own personal messed up, mixed up cocktail of the mind
Add a psychiatrist and
Cue medication trials
Adderall - Shaking like a heroin addict without a fix
Strattera - Driven near to committing suicide
Zoloft - Good enough till the mood swings got worse
Lamictal - Added to Zoloft it seems to work...
Most of the time
But potentially lethal if stopped cold turkey?
That's one way to make sure you keep taking it
Middle school bullying morphs into high school drama
Grades steadily worsening
Finding a job, losing a job
At least when I came out it went pretty smoothly
Finally got my license
Third time's the charm they say
Mom;s got a boyfriend
He's alright
Cept when I hear things late at night
Can't get my headphones in fast enough
Don't sleep in a room next to your parents
Unless it's soundproof
Present day
Still searchin' for a job
Hopin' to make it into a college I WANT to go to
Still coverin' up scars
Placing a smiling mask over a frown
Crossin' my fingers
Praying that after childhood
Things will actually start to look up
Rich, easy, loving
Two parents still very much in love
Two annoying yet loved older siblings
And a caring, cuddly, fluffy dog
Rich... Not exactly, but I couldn't complain
Easy... Not really, I was and am pushed to work harder,
Be better,
Good grades, attitude, manners
Loving... Yes, though the occasional smacks takes me away from that sometimes
All in all a pretty nice life
Until it wasn't
Losing my father at age 12
Suddenly
Unexpectedly
To a heart attack
Finding comfort in fists connecting with walls
And Sharp objects meeting flesh
Being sent to a therapist
Diagnosis?
PTSD, ADHD, Bipolar, Anxiety, Depression
My own personal messed up, mixed up cocktail of the mind
Add a psychiatrist and
Cue medication trials
Adderall - Shaking like a heroin addict without a fix
Strattera - Driven near to committing suicide
Zoloft - Good enough till the mood swings got worse
Lamictal - Added to Zoloft it seems to work...
Most of the time
But potentially lethal if stopped cold turkey?
That's one way to make sure you keep taking it
Middle school bullying morphs into high school drama
Grades steadily worsening
Finding a job, losing a job
At least when I came out it went pretty smoothly
Finally got my license
Third time's the charm they say
Mom;s got a boyfriend
He's alright
Cept when I hear things late at night
Can't get my headphones in fast enough
Don't sleep in a room next to your parents
Unless it's soundproof
Present day
Still searchin' for a job
Hopin' to make it into a college I WANT to go to
Still coverin' up scars
Placing a smiling mask over a frown
Crossin' my fingers
Praying that after childhood
Things will actually start to look up
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Brittana
She stares at me, her dark eyes wet around the edges,
like she has been crying.
My heart pounds with sadness at the sight of her.
She stares at me, knowing all of my secrets, my fears,
and yet she still loves me.
She reaches out and touches my face
and I breathe out one word
"Santana"
That is all she needs to hear.
Because in that word
she can hear my heart, crying out for her.
As she brings our lips closer
I can hear her say
"Brittany"
and then we collide.
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Brittana Dream
"I don't remember feeling like this whenever a guy smiled at me.
It was the weirdest feeling.. her eyes held mine.. and I found myself walking aimlessly.. nothing there, just her and I.
..? Am I crazy? .. she's my best friend.. I can't be.. falling for her.. that's insane.."
Brittany giggled and winked at Santana as she passed her in the hallway.
"Damn.. damn, look how beautiful those blue eyes are.." Santana stared a little too long, for Brittany turned and tilted her head childishly.
"San..? .. San..? You okay..?" she giggled and waved her hand in front of my face.
"Huh? Oh.. I'm fine Britt, don't worry." I flashed a quick smile, al
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A bit similar to another piece of mine. Written for a Spoken Word class prompt.
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It's a little more like angsty prose than a poem, but it's not bad writing.
I'm on zoloft, it doesn't do much for what it's supposed to.
But I sort of understand what you're saying,
just from an opposite view. I know that made little sense- and my apologies that I cannot put it to different more inteligiable wording
I'm on zoloft, it doesn't do much for what it's supposed to.
But I sort of understand what you're saying,
just from an opposite view. I know that made little sense- and my apologies that I cannot put it to different more inteligiable wording